They Lifted Me Up

Hello Everyone!

Remember in my last post this week, I talked about trying to find the positives in all things, and being thankful for all things?  I also mentioned how I have been trying to be more thankful, and to find the positives everyday; and that I have been going for a new mind set for several months now.  Do you also remember how I had mentioned that some days I did better than other days?

Whelp... yesterday was surely my off day...

It began with little sleep that was met head on with a small fear and dilemma, which eventually became the catalyst for a bad day.  I had negative feelings rushing in, but I made some frail attempts to find the positives, and to thank God for His blessings.  By the afternoon, I even had told myself that I didn't care to find the positives anymore today.  Pathetic I know...

With out going into the nitty gritty of it all right now (though I may share some more about it soon), I basically had a mental, and spiritual collapse yesterday.  Hit another one of those mental brick walls and it hurt!  I think I got tired of trying to not only boost myself up, but trying to help others see the positives in life that I got exhausted so to speak--burnt out.

As the afternoon spiraled into a negative pit for me, by evening I was in near tears.  I was low... real low, and kind of really feeling sorry for myself instead of looking around at my blessings.

We all sat down at the table for dinner, when Sky Baby blurted out (I almost want to cry just thinking about it), "What are we all thankful for today?"

Unfortunately, my response was very unbecoming, "Not much for me today, I am afraid. But if you would like to share, you may."

She looked at me dumb founded, but she continued on.

She shared what she was thankful for and then Paiz did too.  There was a few minutes of nothing, and me just staring blankly at my plate of tacos, when Little Man chimed in and said, "Daddy, what are you thankful for?"

Expecting Scot to kind of react the way he had been reacting to my new family meal time of sharing thankful thoughts, I wasn't expecting much out of him.  At first, on Monday, he didn't seem to like my idea and conversation piece.  He seemed to question it a little bit too, though he still participated with us.  However, on Tuesday, he had a bad day at work, and he was at the table a bit glum as I was last night.  When the kids asked him what he was thankful for, he pretty much muttered something to the affect of nothing, when I said to him, "Well, you need to find it."

He replied after a quick pause, "My job, because of how I am able to provide for my family."

Which in turn, changed our dinner conversation in a positive light that night!

My husband, knowing some of what caused my mental state yesterday; and I think grasping what I have been wanting to instill upon the hearts of our children, decided to respond to Little Man's question last night with such a positive up beat tone and smile, "This delicious dinner!"

Realizing that my family was trying to carrying on what I had started, lifted me up! And slowly my sadness melted away!  They lifted me up! 

I am thankful for each and everyone of them!