Free Falling

Several months ago, perhaps close to a year ago, I put up a post explaining that Scot and I had made a decision to jump into the great unknown.  We were going to let God take the wheel so to speak; free fall into living in, with, by and through faith.  We wanted to experience faith-living. I wrote that we knew what we believed we had been called to do, but we would not know what the journey would be like or what the outcome would be.

There are so many variables that could come, and have already come, in a way, from this leap of faith.  There were already so many what-ifs and unknowns before we even took the leap; however, as Scot and I are such huge planners and we, especially me, have always taken the time to plan for the what-ifs, this leap of faith will, undoubtedly, grow our faith and trust in God all the more.

I say that as Scot and I made the decision a long time ago to leap, but that it wasn't going to be until three weeks from today before we would make our decision official by actually leaping.  As Scot and I had the official "jump" planned, God would have another one planned for us instead; and in many ways we are already currently free falling into the great unknown.  Our jump has in some ways begun sooner and more painful than we had planned for or thought that it would be.  While the jump is actually taking place now and not at all the way I had expected it to be, we are being nudged to do so now and have an obstacle in the way to deal with first as we jump. 

It was totally unexpected, I am one of a few to experience what we are experiencing, and its painful to say the least.  This has begun with the actual leap being difficult and painful.  More is ahead of me as well as Scot in the next few days, and as I am not at the point of sharing the details as of yet, changes are happening and will be happening while the unexpected is already occurring. 

But I will simply say the following for now: Although I was in tears today and although I am unsure what the next few days will bring for that matter, God is good and is in control.  And although I am nervous and fear has crept right on in, I am going to lay them at the foot of the Cross, even if I have to keep reminding myself to do so. We are, I am, free falling into the unknown now and although this free fall has begun with what many of you would consider as a negative, the circumstances we find ourselves in reaffirms our "jump of faith" all the more.

As I do not know how long we will fall, or where we will land, I do know one thing is for sure: God will be with us every step of the way and He will be there to catch us when its time for us to land!